Recovery

Brief entry

Today i went out, since I live in the middle of nowhere, I went to the wilderness(kinda), and I heard a lot of insectos singing, my favourite were Pipu Pipu Pipu and Kiri Kiri Kiri. I also howled at the moon

Today in my village, we had a regional tradition downtown, so I said hi to a lot of people on my way home. Smelled some flowers aswell, idk what their name is in spanish or English, it's hmmm Jazmín??

Pipu Pipu Pipu or Kiri Kiri Kiri?

I'm getting worse...

My existential dread got worse, I'm no longer suicidal, but this feels like a life long punishment. I'm way too aware of the world and the cycle of Life and Death, now everything feels meaningless to me, why even leave anything behind if the earth will get vaporized. Nothing is eternal. I'm probably depressed, and I don't feel like I could come out of this situation, the future and the pass of time terrifies me

I did had comfort, while when overthinking, an "other me" spoke to me on my mind, and told me that I would be alright, and that I wouldn't be alone. I might draw him, even if doing anything IS useless, i should force myself to do things